You do not know who your real friends are until everything is all said and done. I learned that today, and I'm happy that I learned it. I'm so happy that I'm out of negativity. If I look back on it, it was really holding me back. It's funny how we get into relationships with people that remind us of what we want. The same things you love about them you also hate about them. The way I was reaching out to people was crazy - the fact that I was in a relationship where over powering was the connection. It's really strange how I reach out for people subconsciously and want the acceptance but fail to get it. It makes me reevaluate if what I'm searching for is really necessary.

I was on my last straw today when I was telling Molly that I need to go home and to let me. Of course she told me no, but it's what she did for me. She showed me the dateline NBC show and restored my faith that I will finish here stronger then ever. I don't know about the transition program and how everyone just came together at the end was priceless. It made me hope for the best and want to reach for a positive end. I was thinking after the argument that I should just not wake up and do my own thing but I thought to myself is that really loving Jahcobie? Moreover, all the times I thought that an irrational thought went away. It works.

I am happy at the way I used some coping skills today when I was a little upset. Not upset, just a little bit of disappointment. I took a walk when I felt myself getting roused up, I'm happy that I did that. On the other hand I'm not so happy about the words that came out of my mouth to describe my feelings. I am happy I'm out of that friendship and thankful that I can just mark it off as a bad day because in the end no thing or one will stand in my way.