I had an interesting day today. I realized half way through my binging that I was binging and made an oath to fix it. I got in trouble for being late to class, first time it was because I got let out of class late, second time it was because I was having a little one on one time with my behavioral coach. It was one of those days that the little things just make the biggest impact on your life.

Today I made another important decision as far as my program. I am not going to sabotage myself and let myself go through another let down. It's all up to me for now on I can either end the chapter on a good note or I can settle for less, just like every other time in my life. It is weird that I can be so naive and let myself reach for nothing than what anyone deserves. That is why from here on out I have stepped it up, meaning that I'm not about foolishness any more. I am about self determination, reaching inside of myself for the answers. The goals I have set for myself are as followed:
-Self Monitor 100%
-Push myself in weight class
-Do at least 1 personal training session a week
-Maintain at least a B in all academics
-Shoot for another step up the summit system
-Wake up on time

Knowing now that I can do this and will do this is major. So that brings me to another topic, when is enough really enough? Is it when you can't stand to lie to yourself anymore? Or is it when you decide that life just isn't on the path that you know that it should be on? Whatever the case maybe what do when you have had enough? Reevaluate and find the solution. It took me having to have group therapy session, an ascender and above meeting and looking into myself to see that I'm not working to my full potential. So I'm going to change it and prove to myself that I can do this and that I will do this.

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