Putting Rational Emotional Behavior Therapy into Action
What do I really say about today? I know where to start off I didn't make the mile time again. However this time I find that I have had much more strength to accept it and work past it. I'm not going to give up on my mile time because I will succeed and refuse to let myself give up like every other time in my life. I am really sore, but you know no pain no gain. I also tried to bench 40% of my body weight and couldn't do it. I didn't get mad at myself like I usually would have, so I see a lot of improvement mentally. I need to stop being so irrational. I think that 95% of my day is doing rational emotive behavioral therapy. Like today when Jon said you got 11:50 I thought "fatty you can't do anything just give up." Then I thought about what would my best friend say and it just made me feel way better.
I think for once in my life I'm actually at a normal mental health for a second I forgot what it felt like to be someone who used to be 483 pounds. It's scary to have those days where you don't remember those horrible times of glutting your pain away. I remember when I would buy $20 worth of Reese's cups and eat them while I smoked Newport's. That is what motivates me when I don't want to get up in the morning, do I ever want to go back to that meaningless life. Obesity was the one thing that defined me and now it doesn't - long term weight control does! I'm happy that my inspiration gave me that remembrance, it stopped me from slipping. Will obesity ever define me? Hell no!
I think for once in my life I'm actually at a normal mental health for a second I forgot what it felt like to be someone who used to be 483 pounds. It's scary to have those days where you don't remember those horrible times of glutting your pain away. I remember when I would buy $20 worth of Reese's cups and eat them while I smoked Newport's. That is what motivates me when I don't want to get up in the morning, do I ever want to go back to that meaningless life. Obesity was the one thing that defined me and now it doesn't - long term weight control does! I'm happy that my inspiration gave me that remembrance, it stopped me from slipping. Will obesity ever define me? Hell no!
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